So far, jb_ficexchange has been really bad for my ego. Baww. I really need to finish my sodamnskippy exchange fic, but every time I sit down to write I get stuck at CLEARLY YOU ARE THE WORST WRITER EVER STOP DOING THIS. YAY BRAIN.

Everyone should go read the story I got for Yuletide Madness, It Hurts Me Too. It's Maybelle Stubbs/Corny Collins, which is one of the OTPs of my SOUL, and from the title I thought it would be all WHAT'S REALLY IMPORTANT HERE IS THE HANDSOME WHITE GUY'S PAIN but it's not. It's AWESOME. Also I feel I should remind you I got the best story ever for Yuletide proper and you should be reading it every minute of your life.

I've had a headache of varying intensity for about five days straight now. It's awesome, except for the part where it's the opposite of that.

We did second Christmas at my aunt's today; my cousin's kid is six and obsessed with Hannah Montana. So we played Hannah Montana Uno and Hannah Montana Barbies and quoted the show at each other and she showed me all her badass Hannah crap. It was basically awesome.

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I have a Jonas Brothers shirt. That sparkles. Basically, I win Christmas.

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Dear Yule Goat:

Number one, thank you!

Number two, I am an extremely easy person to please! There are a few things I always always love - lots and lots of kissing, wacky hijinks, adorable/witty (or character-thinks-he's-witty-but-not-so-much) banter, cracky premises - and only one thing I can think of that I never do - character bashing.

Number three, for a better idea of the fic I like, check out my poorly-maintained recs list, fic_saurus, heygirlfriends, and blackwayfarers. If seeing what I write is any help, that's all here

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So my Yuletide story is the best thing ever written, oh my God. I want to, like, cry for an hour, and hug everything forever.

It's here, and it's Kevron, and it's amazing. Like. Amazing.

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I wrote a Mike/Kevin Christmas ficlet; my original intention was to also write some festive Kevron, but apparently the ew-Mike-Carden Kevron people on my flist are out of luck. WHOOPS.

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Cake (Leverage, Hardison/Parker, Hardison/Eliot, Eliot/Parker)
Exit Wounds (Torchwood, Tosh/multiple)
Untitled Kink Meme Ficlet (Disney RPF, Joe/Kevin/Nick)
most armadillos can't actually roll up to protect themselves (JONAS, Kevin/Nick)
Road Dogs (Disney RPF, Kevin/Zac)
Costume Party (Disney RPF, Kevin/Zac)
It Takes Three (Disney RPF, Kevin/Zac/Vanessa)
The Man I Am Today (Disney RPF, Kevin/Zac)
What I Did On My Summer Vacation, By Joe Jonas, Age 19 (Disney RPF/Flogging Molly, Joe/Nate)
Subtlety (JONAS, Kevin/Nick)
Employee of the Month (Disney RPF/The Academy Is..., Kevin/Carden)
Falling Through the Night, Rising From the Ashes (Disney RPF/The Academy Is..., Kevin/Carden)
When I'm Around Her (Disney RPF/The Academy Is..., Kevin/Carden)
Under the Sea (Disney RPF, Kevin/Joe, Kevin/Zac, Joe/Nick)
Pretty as a Princess (Disney RPF, Kevin/Joe)
Road Dogs: Eleventy, Hot Messes: Sixty-Nine (Disney RPF/Fueled by Ramen, Kevin/Carden, one-sided Beckett/Nick, mostly gen)
I Don't Blame You For Being You (Disney RPF/The Academy Is..., Kevin/Carden)


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Stolen from mayqueen517, because the more the merrier!

Hang your holiday stocking below by leaving a request for something: your favourite pairing, your favourite person, your favourite group, your favourite tour, etc. I'll fill them up with something that I hope will match your request. It might be a fic rec, a photo, a song, a link to a youtube clip...anything. You can also fill other people's stockings if you see something that strikes the right chord.

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Kevin Jonas, your butt is my favorite. IDEC that your shorts are frat-boy-movie-joke-about-European-men short.



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OMG I finished the stupid Yuletide fic. In one stupid sitting (well, three or four, if you count the time it took to get the first stupid hundred words out). Apparently all I needed to do was go work out a bit so my brain would shut off and then reboot in the appropriate mode. IDK. Once it started flooding out I wondered why I ever stopped writing for this fandom in the first place. So, awesome. It's all uploaded and everything, so hopefully I will be less of an anxiety mess (I spent most of the day in bed. That is a giant red flag. And then I spent the rest of today berating myself for spending most of the day in bed, which is also bad).

I feel like garbaaaage. I've had the migraine aura since I woke up from my nap, and the actual headache finally joined it.

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Yuletide deadline is tomorrow; I have 100 words of a fic I've been trying desperately, and failing, to find any desire to write. Plus I'm feeling kind of shitty about myself and my writing this weekend; the former kind of inexplicably, the latter for a reason.

The goodish news is, every time I sit down to work on the Yuletide fic, my sodamnskippy exchange fic grows another hundred or so words. And that one's actually good, so.

Quick, someone invent a challenge with a deadline tonight. Maybe if I think of it as procrastination in and of itself the Yuletide fic will want to get written.

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I finished and sent one jb_ficexchange fic but I haven't even started the second one I don't know what to write oh God why did I offer to pinch write somebody kill me now

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I have accomplished some things today! You may not appreciate how much of an accomplishment even one thing would be until I tell you I drank stale coffee yesterday morning because I was too lazy to use the one-touch ZOMGINSTANT coffee machine. I win at being on surprise!vacation, but fail very, very hard at living.

- I got halfway through one of my jb_ficexchange fics! In one go, which is excellent, 'cause when I sat down I wasn't even sure which pairing to go with. AND I'm even happy with it so far. I think I can finish it tonight, and have tomorrow to do my pinch hit *knocks on wood*

- I left the house! For the first time in...73 hours, eep. My anxiety's been horrid lately, but I did talk myself out of using not having a job as an excuse for staying in and letting it keep getting worse. One good thing about my anxiety being at this level is that when something as little as walking out the door is an accomplishment, it's easy to find reasons to congratulate myself.

- I shopped! And didn't buy anything for myself. Since I only have one paycheck coming before Christmas, this is a good time to learn to curb my impulse-buying urges.

- I did some cleaning! Our living room is too disastrous for a tree, so armed with pretty pink gloves, a Balsam Fir candle, and Christmas music I kicked some ass.

And then my sister was wonderful and brought me home the greatest gift of all, a quart of french fries.

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Ugh, work. We got sent home early on Monday 'cause they ran out of stuff for us to do, had a full day yesterday (except I went in late, so I didn't get the full 8 hours, goddammit), and then sent us home early yesterday...and told us our warehouse was gonna be closed for a while so not to come back until we get a call from Adecco. Probably the 28th. At least we were promised our boss'll ask for the exact same crew again, so it's a surprise!unpaid!vacation more than a layoff. Still, this is a shitty time of year for a surprise!unpaid!vacation.

So. That's awesome.

( List Meme: Sexy Things About Ron Weasley, OTPs, Reluctant Admissions of Love, the Fiftieth Incarnation of My Favorite Songs, and more! )

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You post a topic, list, category, whatever, in my comments section. (examples: "5 Sexiest Things About Ron Weasley" or "Top 5 things to drink"). Then, in a separate post, I'll post the answers to all your Top 5 ideas, according to me. Then you post this offer in your own journal.

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New favorite "I am an adult" moment: truemajority and I bought crayons yesterday, which I put in my new Jonas Brothers purse because, y'know, why use a bag for just crayons (well, also lip gloss and a scarf, but).

So then of course when we went out to eat and I went to get my wallet, the crayons were the first thing visible. In my Disney purse. Because. I am an adult.

Christmas music season is in full swing! My favorite time of yeeeeear oh god. I have all sorts of plans to bombard you with Christmas music at some point, but until I am unlazy enough to actually do that, feel free to pick through the stuff I uploaded for blackwayfarers here (what's in there).

I was originally going to post about a number of angsty/depressing/melancholy things but I am apparently being positive, so that's all you get, crayons and Christmas music.

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I pretend I'm not excited by this Nick Jonas & The Administration garbage, but here I am having turned off the movie I was watching to watch the ~omg first evar performance~.

THIS IS GONNA BE AWESOME. I'm gonna pretend I don't care if it's good or bad 'cause I'm not that invested in Nick but I AM SUCH A FUCKING LIAR.

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sodamnskippy is holding a Christmas fic exchange, so if you're into that at all you should go sign up.

(The last thing I need is another deadline, but I've been writing 2-300 words of Carden/Kevin a day, so all I need to do is make those 2-300 happen in the same fic every day. IDK)

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I hate being hungover. I used to be able to prevent it, but since I drank three and a half bottles of water last night (plus a glass at truemajority's) and took a double dose of Excedrin before sleep, and have still been completely incapacitated all day, I appear to have lost the knack.

As in, it's five o'clock and I just now felt good enough to go get my car, after sleeping all day. (And man, work tomorrow's probably gonna suck; what're the chances I'll get anything resembling a decent night's sleep after sleeping all day?)

Bah.

I've hit that point where I can't tell if I'm all woozy and unsteady because I'm still sick, and thus eating would be a bad idea, or if it's because I've only eaten two slices of artichoke pie and a handful of cookies in the past two days, and thus eating would solve all my problems. My tummy is rumbling, so I'm taking my chances with some Wheat Thins.

I'm trying to write a Jonas Brothers primer specifically for Bandom people who've come in through stuff like Mike/Kevin and the JoBros-on-Warped-Tour fic and don't necessarily need the thoroughness of the Jonas U series but might like to stop being confused by every name they read. It's not happening, though. Oh well.

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IDK why I'm so exhausted; I've been getting a full eight hours, give or take ten minutes at most, every night except Friday & Saturday, and since I nap most of the day Saturday & Sunday that shouldn't make a huge difference. And I'm not seeing any signs the sleep I'm getting is restless - if my sheets were all fucked up in the morning, or something, I'd get it. But there's no sign of bad sleep, and I'm still having trouble getting out of bed when my alarm goes off, still dragging ass by the end of the day. Today I took a half-hour nap even though I have a rule against napping on weekdays, and I'm already wanting to crawl into bed. Blah.

It doesn't help I've been having killer migraines like crazy lately; two Saturdays in a row I've woken up with a bad one that refuses to die, and I keep getting them at work. We have two warehouses, the one we usually work in and one across the street that's mostly there to get shit out of the way we work in every now and then. The crap warehouse has fluorescent lighting, and we've been checking cans/boxes for rust, which means having to scrutinize in crappy, dim lighting. AWESOME for my headaches, totally.

We have a four-day weekend coming up. Maybe I just need a break.

ETA: While I was in the shower, one of the cats decided to work on the sequel to I Don't Blame You For Being You:

Kevin blinks; the night before flashes into his head, more than he could remember before, and the second he sees it his face has to show it, 'cause Mike looks away.

"RRRRD1`N IU DSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXSSSS)_PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPVPI'm sorry, Kevin."

When I figure out which cat it was, I think I'll let her write my yuletide fic.

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